A lot of things, but maybe not the one I wanted to be writing at the present moment.
I came away from a meditation just now where I asked the angels, my spirit guides, the Ascended Masters, and even the Source of all Creation to go help those in need tonight. There are so many hurt, desperate, frightened people in this county (The U.S.) who need help right now, in this now moment. Not to diminish my own sovereignty, but my problems don’t amount to a hill of sh*t by comparison right now.
I think there are some folks in this country that have plum lost they damn minds, and that’s putting it mildly. If we thought 2020 had issues with race riots, look out, here comes election controversy round two? three? What round are we on again? This is ridiculous, family, seriously. PEACEFUL changes in leadership is why this country holds elections.
I’m not disclosing my voting record here, but I will say, I’ve voted for my share of winners, losers and guys who had no hope or prayer whatsoever of winning in this country. I’ve gone from raging social liberal to hardened conservative and now I’m extremely concerned for what is best for people well beyond any stereotype or label. I look back on the stuff I wrote many, many years ago when I thought social welfare was all that and capitalism was bad and I’m just thinking, “Dude, we need to talk.” I can’t really go back in time and slap myself unfortunately.
In a different example, my wife went to Urgent Care with a staph infection from this little blemish on her leg that blew up huge over the weekend. She’s got some pretty hardcore antibiotics and we’re keeping an eye on it, but… just damn. Ya know? Like, who’d have seen that coming? She’s gonna be okay, but in terms of perspective, it really is pause for me to think.
Now, I will say, I’m sitting on more than one article about UFOlogy and extraterrestrials that I am going to put out soon, maybe. I will ask who’d want to land on this planet or even this country with all the dumb stuff going on? Think about it. We’ve got half of the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse already running amok and well on our way to the other two. (You get to figure out which are which. One could make a strong case with locusts and murder hornets for that third one.) Government Disclosure is one thing. Our Star Family coming to visit this planet right now? Heck, I’m not sure I want to live on this rock and this body was born on it. Yeesh.
I’m also sitting on an article revolving around my work situation right now. Long story short, it’s not looking too hot. I’m three drafts in on my two weeks notice and probably going to make it an open letter before it’s all said and done. I find myself working for the kind of people that my younger, very anti-McCorporate self would have been losing his damn mind over. I don’t want to embrace an old paradigm, but for once, old Jeff is right. Then again, that version of me didn’t have a family to look out for. There’s another issue we should stop and look at in all this.
All my life and especially now, I’ve had this war going between ideals and practicality. Ever notice what you should do and what you need to do maybe don’t always match up? Now that I’m more in tune with my spiritual self having a physical experience, it seems like a never-ending war of duality and separation. It’s maddening, sheer bedlam, the things humans do and say to each other. The “Matrix” that we have constructed for ourselves around money, job, and family for so long no one can remember anything else is just so confining.
How many times have I heard the following:
Don’t do something you want to do because you need to be responsible and feed your family.
Don’t quit that job you hate because you’ll starve in the street.
Don’t pursue theatre, art, writing, or role playing games because there’s no money in it.
Just keep suffering through this job until you go find another one (that will suck just as bad if not worse…)
Don’t follow your dream of working for yourself. That’s bound to fail.
If you were going to be a millionaire, you’d have done it by now.
Get a good education so you can get a good job, even though there are plenty of folks who have done better with less. Oh, and continue struggling with that student debt after you find out your degrees are absolutely useless…
Too close to home on a few of those? Yeah, probably. I’m grateful I have a car, a home, and a job so my family can eat. That’s true. This lifetime, at least I’ve had some good circumstances. And I don’t begrudge anyone for doing better. That’s not the point. The point is, there are multiple sides to every issue. It’s not just A or B or even Z.
What really gets me right now is that after thousands of years of alleged evolution and supposed enlightenment, the human race is still a cosmic trainwreck. Peace, prosperity and joy really should be our top priority. We don’t need to stomp all over someone else to get that done. Thousands of years of learning what ideals look like and we’re still literally hitting one another over the head to solve differences in opinion, screwing each other over for profit, and living in miserable squalor because one person refuses to help another out.
As a final side note, I don’t know if something astrological happened, but everything and it’s karmic dog has been coming up for me to clear these last two weeks. Ever feel like the Universe has just taken to smacking you around for funsies? Every aspect of my life has literally come into focus at some point. It’s almost depressing how many things I thought I had overcome and still need to work out again. Again? I don’t know about you all, but I really want to see a light at the end of this particular tunnel. Even saying, “I don’t know,” is considered to be giving away one’s own sovereignty. But what happens if you really don’t know?
Onward and upward, I suppose.