…we might suffer and toil here on the Earth plane. There are hard days for all of us, no matter where we are or what our circumstances are. But in the very end, it has all played out for a reason. No, we don’t understand why. But we know it happens for a reason…
My mother-in-law passed suddenly on December 22nd due to complications of Diabetes. Her funeral was December 30th. We will miss her as she was dear to all of our children and the holiday season will not be the same with her passing.
There’s a spiritual lesson here.
I think we sometimes take our existence on the 3D Earth plane for granted. We do some pretty silly stuff just to pass the time. Which is not to say that it’s bad to have some fun or that life has to be a 24/7 grind right up until the grave. Quite the opposite. We’re here to enjoy what life has to offer. But sometimes it’s easy to forget that it only lasts so long.
Then the veil of forgetfulness kicks in when we start all over again, assuming we choose to do so. Then it’s right back to taking things for granted. Maybe we work too many long hours at a dead end job. Maybe we get married to someone in a flight of passion only to get divorced a few weeks later. Maybe we drown our problems in drugs, alcohol, porn and/or gambling for years on end. Then time passes us by. Then, all the things we wish we had done are past.
According to some, we are God experiencing the Universe through mortal eyes. Or more succinctly, God experiencing God in of of His many forms. So, then the question always comes back around to “Why do bad things happen?” And the answer is inevitably, “We don’t truly know.”
I like to think everything, and I mean literally everything, happens for a reason. Getting hired at a job. Getting fired from a job. Having children or choosing not to do so. Writing an article or eating Cheetos and playing video games. Dying. It all happens for a reason. It’s not necessarily our place to know why or when we’re going to die. Some things are choices, indicating free will. But who’s to say there isn’t divine guidance behind those very choices that have a deeper reason behind them? God works in mysterious ways. Ours is not to always know what the motivations behind the scenes really are.
Yes, we choose in every now moment. That’s the free will component of the 3D Earth plane. And people die every day from choices that could maybe have been different, or were different in another timeline of the multiverse. But the kicker is, when God calls you home, that’s it. Your current body is done and away you go on another adventure.
I believe in a loving Universe, or caringGod, if you will.
I’m not a religious person by any stretch of the imagination. My friend Tom, who was our minister for the service, has his own congregation of the Evangelical Free Church. I absolutely loved the service today. As funerals go, he did a fantastic job. The one message, and I sincerely hope my kids were paying attention, is that we have a loving God. (Sorry, non-Christian friends. I know it’s not your cup of tea necessarily. It’s what we’re working with today.) We do truly live in a loving, benevolent Universe, though.
Sure, we might suffer and toil here on the Earth plane. There are hard days for all of us, no matter where we are or what our circumstances are. But in the very end, it has all played out for a reason. No, we don’t understand why. But we know it happens for a reason, and I suspect that we are filled in on what happened on the other side of the veil, assuming we didn’t already know and just forgot.
Personally, I don’t think there is a Hell, at least not as organized religion would have us believe. I mean, why would a loving and caring Creator have to force us into behaving ourselves with threats of eternal damnation and everlasting torment? Why put us through all this stuff on the Earth plane, just to screw up and forever suffer for it?
Are there “bad” people?
Of course there are who do bad, unspeakable acts in life. There are also large numbers of good, kind, loving people. I could name hundreds of offenses against humanity and trespasses upon others’ sovereignty. Again, this goes back to the belief that we all have a part to play. One lifetime you inflict trauma, but in the next you might be on the receiving end of all kinds of horrible treatment. There’s always a reason, though. There’s always a lesson in everything. There is always the presence of the divine in everything.
Whatever lies on the other side of the mortal coil is waiting for us to find. No matter what you choose to believe, the day is going to finally come when we transition from our current body into whatever comes next. Far too many people have come back from Near Death Experiences with stories of the other side for there to be nothing there. (Sorry, atheist friends. I’m very convinced there is another side.) Whatever the reason things happen in the mortal coil, we’re all going to meet up to discuss it on that other side.
Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need my daily dose of cute, fuzzy bunnies and duckies. I’m going to go snuggle the cats and maybe get some sleep. It’s been kinda rough. I trust in the Universe. I believe in something greater than all of us, but I don’t always claim to understand why things happen the way they do. Hence, little, simple, fuzzy, loving little animals. No serious thought required, just love and snuggles.
Have a safe and happy holiday season. Much love. Please set your intentions for 2022 to be a year of prosperity, joy, love and forgiveness. See you again soon.
Christmas is right around the corner. I’m still without any kind of meaningful employment if anyone was wondering. Not that I’m bitter, but more on that in a moment. I have started an account on Ko-Fi if you want to buy me a cup of coffee or contribute to my kids’ college funds.
I want to share some love with the people who have been here for me through the year. It’s been…
Good at times. We’ve experienced some real abundance. I’ve felt the “Flow” at times as we say in Law of Attraction circles. I’m going to drop a ton of Instagram links below in a movie-credit style roll for those interested in making new friends. It’s been a good year, in many respects.
Then there was the not-as-amazing stuff. Being unemployed is a blessing and a curse. (Again, more on that later.) Our health held up. Our roof stayed attached through all of the wind storms. Christmas is looking very bright this year. We’re still kicking butt as a single income house so far. Ya know, I keep coming up with all these things to be grateful for, almost like my Higher Self is showing me what to say?
Like, maybe you can’t be super high vibe all the time, but the lows aren’t so low, either. I will honestly say, I’ve had some struggles with depression, anxiety, anger, and pain this year. Depression and pain being the absolute worst of it, but I’ve managed to pull through. The valleys aren’t as deep any more and the hills aren’t as tough to climb.
Okay, taking a minute to spit a little anger at a few groups, because duality exists.
First, I’d like to put a big middle finger in the air up to corporate America. I especially have a mean-on for one specific industry that I can’t mention here for the potential of getting sued. But let’s just say it doesn’t bode well for any of the suit-n-tie-wearing, bottom-line-toting, conference-room-team-meeting, SMART-goal-fucking, overinflated, top-heavy, corporate McAssholes of the world when you treat people like absolute shit and then get around to firing them. In an ironic twist, I hear people are leaving some of those corporate jobs in droves because of shitastic working conditions and poor treatment by management, anyway. Good for them!
Second, another KissMyAss award goes out to #ufotwitter. Yes. You’ve earned it. Stop being pompous, overinflated egoic, know-it-all naysayers who allow no one a differing opinion or outlook. For people fighting for Disclosure and want to “believe” in ETs, UFOs, UAPs or whatever you’re calling them this week? Y’all got a funny way of showing it. Probably because you know the minute meaningful ET contact is made or Disclosure ends publicly, you’re going to have to shut up and your book deal will be gone. Meanwhile, all the government funded disinformation agents and shills out there are finally going to be out of their jobs, too. But, take heart. I hear Iowa Workforce Development will retrain you as an arc welder or dental hygienist for free.
Third, the State of Iowa could sink into the center of the Earth any day now for what it’s worth. Hopefully they can build bridges to connect other states over the crater. We’ll probably find some way to blame the Governor Kim Reaper for it. Our Cov-Icky-Cough-Coughs numbers are higher than most Third World Nations and our employment outlook is horrible. Iowa Workfarce Enforcement only cares about one set of uneducated-but-skilled laborers. If you have a college degree, get ready to step down and take it in the butt or go without a job. But if you’re fresh out of high school or suddenly disillusioned with UFOlogy and can follow instructions like a good little drone, they want you.
A Couple of Other Thoughts While We’re Here.
COVID… I’ve seen so much freakin rhetoric about vax vs anti-vax and mask vs anti-mask. And again, see that bright red state in the middle of the map with the outrageous uptick in reported outbreaks? Yeah… Get your shots or don’t. Wear a mask or don’t. Make the decision for yourself. Just stop talking about it, please. Save our sanity.
Mainstream Media- I have a journalism degree for cryin out loud. (Not that it’s ever made a huge difference.) You know what one of the first things I cut out of my life right after I graduated was? Watching any kind of news broadcast or reading any news outside of the occasional YouTube video or article from an independent website. Even then, I take a lot of it with a grain of salt. Please, do yourselves a favor this holiday season and in life and turn the TV off, stop listening to the bobble headed idiots on morning radio, put the newspaper down, and go outside for some fresh air. Screw politics. To Hell with what the Kardashians are doing now. Fuck COVID. Let the Chinese do whatever they’re going to do today. Ignore Trump entirely. Just go get some fresh air and appreciate the world around you. You’re gonna be so much better off for it.
Let’s talk about that whole “being unemployed” thing for a few.
This is not a dis on people with jobs. We all gotta do what we gotta do. Love ya for it.
Personally, if I never set foot in an office again to work, it’s not gonna hurt my feelings. I’m productive from right here at home. Yes, I’m struggling right now because no one sees my value. I can write. I know I can. I have yet to land a writing gig. Yes, I know what’s on my résumé It says I’ve been beaten more times than your college baseball team. But it doesn’t say a thing about me or what I’m capable of. Iowa Workless Defamation doesn’t see it. The locals aren’t hiring for anything I want to do and finding a remote job is like… Geez, I can’t even come up with a good comparison any more because it pretty much sucks!
Yes, I would love to have a “career” again. Quite honestly, being a stay-at-home dad is starting to feel a little like freeloading. This is not exactly fulfilling my life purpose or seeing my mission as a lightworker out, but it’s not horrible, either. I would love to be bringing in some money for roof repairs, a new vacuum cleaner, or whatever else comes up next. I mean, four kids. It’s always something.
Every time I see one of those cute concentric circles on Twitter with everyone’s massive friends groups and it brings back that tired old feeling left over from grade school. You know. The kid that’s always the last one picked? That’s me. Story of my life. No lie, I remember a couple of times in middle school and high school when they completely skipped me, leaving me without a team.
We humans are social animals. I guess.
It’s funny. Every time I see one of those cute concentric circles on Twitter with everyone’s massive friends groups and it brings back that tired old feeling left over from grade school. You know. The kid that’s always the last one picked? That’s me. Story of my life. No lie, I remember a couple of times in middle school and high school when they completely skipped me, leaving me without a team.
I’m here to tell you. That sh*t hurt! It’s one thing to get picked last. I get that. I mean, someone has to be last, right? Sure. But not to get chosen at all? Ouch. That was somewhat trauma-inducing. Science is now showing that stuff stays with us all the way into adulthood.
I’ve always had trouble making friends.
Maybe it’s astrological. I’m a Cancer. We don’t necessarily socialize well.
Maybe it’s divine. Maybe it’s just in my soul contract that I’m not designed to be super popular or even have a ton of friends. Why did I sign up for that? Who the heck knows? I’ll let you know when I see my Akashic Record. There’s bigger mysteries out there, I suppose.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m in plenty of communities, at least on social media. Plenty of people know me on social media, or my persona, anyway. I just always have to wonder, if I closed my accounts today, would anyone notice? I’m still around, but it makes me wonder.
Ufology is kind of a split community. You’ve got the nuts-and-bolts crowd, the spiritual crowd, and the conspiracy crowd. There’s also the “abduction”/contactee/experiencer community, which is almost a group unto itself. There are some overlaps. We all want the government to cough up what they know. Everything else is pretty much up for grabs as to how and why. After the Añjali thing, I’m not sure if any of us will ever be right again.
The “New Age” spiritual community has its own special share of differing opinions. There are so many variations on how, what, and who to believe it’s hard to pin anything down beyond a mutual love of each other and Source. Again, there’s a lot of overlap, but then it gets wild.
Writers are a funny lot. Sure, we encourage each other. But at the same time, there’s always a subtle air of mistrust and competition. It’s like I hope you do well, but don’t steal my stuff! Overall, writers can be a pretty aloof bunch. Not really my jam, but I like NaNoWriMo.
Back to my own roots.
After a somewhat rocky couple of months in the Ufology community, I took an extended break. I went back and visited my friends in the worlds of tabletop roleplaying games. The Dungeons & Dragons crowd is relatively warm and welcoming. I guess 40+ years of being mocked, picked-on, and called names makes for solid bonding amongst fellows. I know D&D is currently riding the wave of popularity, but even after the wave subsides, we’ll still have a hobby.
Sure, conflicts arise in any group, but how they are handled within the community is what defines it. Gamers eventually forgive and forget most offenses. It’s just easier to move on and keep having fun than hold grudges over what is supposed to be a social exercise.
That having been said, do I have a group? Yeah. My family. I’m happy, grateful and proud my kids are picking up the hobby. I have plenty of folks I know on Twitter and Instagram in the hobby. But, again… besties? Well, not so much.
The lesson here is: Don’t put too much stock in what people on social media think.
I like social media, generally speaking. I spend some time on there. Sure, who doesn’t? I mean, there are probably plenty of people, but I think a lot of folks do have some contact with one of the big social media platforms.
It’s not the end-all and be-all of modern existence. A lot of spiritual folk will tell you to detox from social media by taking some time off or deleting it altogether. Ironically, they usually spread the word using one of those social media platforms. But do as they say, and not as they do, right? It’s good advice. I take week long breaks from time to time.
At the end of all this, I’m still a beautiful divine being having a (somewhat mediocre, shitty,) physical experience. I don’t 100% need or even want social acceptance or even contact of any kind some days. Sorta makes me wonder if I have a form of undiagnosed autism or something… I wonder if I’ll ever have any kind of meaningful impact on society or anyone, ever as far as that goes. If a light goes on in the forest and there are no squirrels around to see it, do any woodland creatures notice?
There is more to this acceptance story as it relates to work. We’ll examine that idea in another article this week. Wait until I get on a tear about being hired… Until then, take care.
God bless my wife for keeping the family going. Thank you, Heather, if you see this, for putting up with my antics for this long. You deserve a medal.
It’s the 19th already?!? Where does the time go?
This might be my last post on this blog. I haven’t fully decided yet. I guess I’ll let you know. It’s Freedom Day for me. It’s been four months since I had a “real” job.
God bless my wife for keeping the family going. Thank you, Heather, if you see this, for putting up with my antics for this long. You deserve a medal.
Time to get a little more vulnerable than usual. It’s been a rough month for me emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Let me try to put this together in a way that will make sense. Please pardon my ramble in advance.
To the handful of people that read this, I thank you. You are truly appreciated.
This blog has been a kind of learning lab for me. Figuring out what to do, what not to do, and what all is possible. It’s been a labor of love. But I’m here to tell ya, family- this last month has really made me question a good number of things in my life.
First setback of the month was:
Let’s start at the top with the Añjali debacle. She announced that the Mojave expedition is permanently on hold due to the health concerns of the man who owns the land that the tunnel to the underground base sits on. It was a huge disappointment for some and an even bigger I-told-ya-so for the asinine turds of #ufotwitter. I guess yay for them, but it’s a huge setback for some of us.
It’s big old double whammy for those of us in the UFO and Spiritual communities. I mean I’ve been called a “New Ager woo-woo freak” by the nuts-and-bolts guys before because I’m spiritually active and listen to channelers, CE-5, meditate regularly, and so on. I really think someone should unite the communities. Añjali could have been that link, but too many people were protecting their vested interests and cash cows to listen. So, any credibility some of us freaks had in the UFO world is more disrupted than ever. ETs could land on my front lawn complete with video and #ufotwitter would say it was fake.
Añjali wasn’t necessarily the great white hope. We knew there was a possibility that she could be involved in a psyop to discredit, dismantle, and disrupt both the Ufology and spiritual communities. Personally, I don’t think she is, but I acknowledge that it’s possible. Then again, Lue Elizondo could be doing the same thing and there are plenty of people eating right out of his proverbial hands, too. I’ve said on Twitter and elsewhere that Añjali should have gone to the experiencer/contactee or spiritual channeling communities with her information instead of UFO (a$$holes) Twitter. But hey, like so many others, she shut me down and refuses to answer my Direct Messages. Again, the skeptic in me sees a false flag operation, but who knows…
It was NaNoWriMo Month again,too.
I’m unemployed. Technically every month could/should be NaNoWriMo. Family support is important if you intend to bang out an entire book in one month. I have five other people and three cats that all need love and attention on any given day so it just didn’t come together. I may actually start a novel yet this month, but there’s no pressure, no writing buddies, or any of the usual NaNo flair. It’ll be okay.
Found me a new community.
My English teachers and editors would be losing their ever loving minds over that header, but whatever. I have gone back into my #ttrpg roots, and that may be what this blog changes over to soon. Again, I guess we’ll see. I kinda like having a place for personal shares, but I have only this humble paid-for space and I would really love the Premium package for my gaming ventures. TTRPG stands for TableTop RolePlaying Games, for those who don’t know.
So, yeah, as I’ve mentioned before, I’m a huge Dungeons and Dragons fan and have been pretty much my whole life. I started gaming back in the early 1980’s and have been at it for almost 40 years. But it’s always been a hobby and a writing venture. I have yet to sell anything in the industry. I’ve worked in game stores. I’ve sold a lot of games over the years. But, always a bridesmaid, so to speak.
That brings us to the next point.
I’ve had to spend lots of meaningful time with my friends at Iowa Workforce Development this month to ensure my unemployment check didn’t get cut off completely. I’ve gotten to attend all kinds of fun meetings to make sure I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing. I guess that’s what they get paid the big bucks for, but at the same time, they’re not actually doing anything for me, aside from my unemployment check.
I also got an anonymous message from a former co-worker with a juicy tidbit that confirmed some of my suspicions. I wish I could say a LOT more without jeopardizing my severance and NDAs, but I can’t. Somebody should, though. To quote the Matrix, Cypher told Morpheus “If you’d told us the truth, we would’ve told you to shove that red pill right up your ass.” That’s true of my severance package, but my family needed the money, so it’s a tough choice and I ultimately made the right decision.
That said, my job search has thus far been a running joke with me. Honestly, if I never work a “real job” again, it’ll be too soon. I like being my own boss, setting my own hours, and giving myself a pat on the back for being my employee of the month. Unfortunately, IWD has a hard time seeing this. They have an obvious agenda. I’m not part of that equation.
They told us in one of their little “classes” that they want people to fill what they refer to as the “middle skills” roles. In other words, they want people who have completed high school, but haven’t been to college. They want dental hygienists, welders, truck drivers and nurses. Do I fit that description? Hell no! Do I want to take a pay cut and do something I’m going to be absolutely miserable doing? F*ck No!!! I will literally embrace homelessness for myself (and only myself) before I will ever go back to the 9-5 grind doing something just for the sake of doing it.
And they keep trying to tell us “Oh, it’s so meaningful. So many people find their life purpose doing this…” No. No, people really don’t find it meaningful or fulfilling. In fact, it makes me sick to my stomach to hear the IWD people rattle on about fulfilling it is to sleep, eat, work, repeat and how everything else is just a fun hobby. Again, I get that it’s what they’re paid to do, but it’s not an enlightened, spiritually aware thing to do.
My whole resume is disgustingly full of the kinds of jobs they’re talking about. No offense to anyone, but I think I’d rather die than go back to just about any of those jobs. The pay is mediocre. The hours are long and unfulfilling. There is no appreciation from management most of the time. The benefits are crappy. Worst of all, my health will not support that kind of work ever again in an office or any other environment.
You ARE safe. Remember, Source energy looking back onto itself? Plus, I’m here for you.
Since I sat down to write anything…
I apologize for the gap in between posts, family. I’d like to make this one of those I’m-going-to-post-more articles, but honestly, I’m not sure right now. Yes, I’d like to get the most out of my WordPress dollars. I mean, that’s why it’s here, right?
I’ve had some trials and tribulations out here in the real world and all. Everything is okay now. Everyone was/is healthy. That’s all fine and well. I took some time out to really reflect on what I’ve been doing and what I am. I mean, what I really stand for.
Yes, I do a lot of soul searching. It’s part of the spiritual territory. If you don’t ask the tough questions, it’s hard to receive answers. Yes, receive answers.
Source/God/Universe speaks through us.
My beautiful atheist friends (Yes, I acknowledge you.) would be getting a good chuckle out of me saying this. But I feel it’s very true. We don’t talk to Source like it’s Google or Bing. As an atheist friend of mine once said, “There’s no magical sky man with all your answers.”
At the time I kinda disagreed politely. Turns out he was actually right. My good friend Shane reminded me a while back that God is IN us. Go within to seek your truth. (Check out @thespiritofthecosmos on Instagram and YouTube for more of Shane’s brilliance and wisdom.) Which is to say we are all made of Source energy. When you gaze upon another person, you are gazing at the Universe itself! Isn’t that amazing?
My Higher Self, that being that came to this 3D Earth plane to forget and relive the excitement already knows. I already knew the answers to to tough questions before I ever asked. Now, I’m just telling you, my friends and family. It’s all here. Go within. Be the best you already know you are!
Sometimes the spiritual riffs flow through me.
Back in my younger days, about 20 years ago, someone asked me why I didn’t become a minister. I never realized how much I apparently talked about God back then? Here’s the catch- I’ve never been into organized religion. I don’t do dogma. I’m not big on rules, or authority (aside from, well, the Universal Laws, but that’s a personal code and not something I insist everyone do.) I believe in a benevolent Universe, which is to say God doesn’t exist to punish us.
I know. I know. I’m gonna sound all “Woo-woo New Age-y” and say, “There is no Hell.” I mean, basically there isn’t, but I know that’s complicated and I’ll cover that some other time. But essentially, you’re going to play your part and pay your karmic debt eventually. It’s still all learning. We won’t get into the really dark and grim stuff today.
Where was I going with this?
Lol! Oh yeah… We had some drama on #ufotwitter recently with @anjaliongaia that really shook me up. We got to see the very, very ugly side of some people in the #UFO community. I won’t rehash or drag it all up again, but basically the expedition has been put on hold and the skeptics have gone bonkers with “I told ya so.”
I got into some arguments, I saw some of my own dark side coming forth and honestly I needed to step back and take a break from it all. I think my friend Añjali should have gone to the Experiencer/Contactee community instead of holding a press conference and involving some of the real ass-hats on #ufotwitter. The spiritual community is also very warm and welcoming and it Añjali’s message would have been much more well-received there. But, we can only move forward.
One of my friends on Twitter mentioned she has Night Terrors when she takes Melatonin. (Melatonin is a natural sleep aid that has been known to put one in a deep Theta brainwave state.) This sets off immediate alarm bells in my mind because it could be any number of things that cause the night terror phenomenon. One of the possible causes of sleep paralysis/night terrors is visitation by extradimensional or extraterrestrial contact. Hello? That’s my jam.
So, I paused for a second because it could also stem from real world, physical, psychological, or emotional trauma and I’m not a licensed anything. I messaged her with a great deal of compassion and caution. Turns out is was related to real world causes and not ET contact. My friend has it under control, with proper therapy, etc. There’s nothing I can offer but compassion.
I used to suffer from both night terrors and sleep paralysis. Some of you already know what I’m going to say next… You know what fixed it? Yup. Meditation.
Also, if you’re having symptoms of night terrors or sleep paralysis, remember to breathe. Am I still breathing? Check. Okay, all is well. Why am I afraid? Who’s in charge here?
Several Experiencers have recounted that their would-be nocturnal captors ceased and desisted immediately when they invoked the name of Jesus Christ or another ascended master. You have power over these contact experiences. You ARE safe. Remember, Source energy looking back onto itself? Yeah.
One guy claims to regularly attack beings in his home with the katana placed next to his bed. Not sure how much I buy into that, but if it makes him feel safe, I guess. My own contact experiences slowed down after I chased beings back to their craft with a 12 gauge shotgun, which I now regret immensely. But again, it’s about feeling safe in any situation involving night terrors. Please remember you ARE safe!
To any beings listening, I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you!
Why isn’t this a separate article?
Because I realized I was neglecting my audience. I apologize. I DO have something to contribute. I’m going to start contributing more again. I can’t promise regularly or daily, but I am still going to be here. I love you, family. I appreciate you. And I’m always here if you need anything or if there are any questions I can help you answer.
I’ve been liberated from the grind of 12 hour work days for three months!
I want to preface this with the thought: Be responsible! Don’t do anything rash on account of what somebody on the Internet said. I wouldn’t be here right now were it not for the kindness and understanding of my family. For that I am extremely grateful.
If you’re working hard to keep food on the table, keep going. You got this!
Things I’m grateful for since freedom came to me:
I’m my own boss and my own employee of the month.
Freedom from McCorporate Team environment.
The slow 12 hour workday trudge to the grave is no more.
Time for my family.
Time for my own health and sanity.
Setting my own schedule.
Deciding my own fate over putting money in their pockets.
Hallelujah! I am so happy and grateful to be free on this day! This is proof that the Law of Attraction really does work. It’s not always easy or painless, but it does come together in its own special way. We live in a benevolent Universe. I believe in good things and they are there for me. I AM realistic. I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!!
I’ve worked toward manifesting this moment right here, right now. I’m my own boss, working my own hours, reporting to me. I’m my own employee of the month. This guy is truly moving onward and upward. I give me all kinds of praise and good reviews. Gotta keep that vibration up, though.
I’m so happy and grateful to be free from the corporate environment. If that’s your thing, great. You do that. Me? I’m my own boss. Technically still unemployed by the current socioeconomic cultural matrix standards, but that’s their label, not mine. I find things that are awesome about me.
It’s like finding inner peace on a whole new level. I set my own standards for success. I’m happy being me. It’s beautiful. There’s no one breathing down my neck. There are no performance “SMART” goals. No upper-middle-lower management clowns to bug me. No one setting standards they can’t meet themselves. My life is beautiful now that the greasy corporate mentality is all washed out of my system. I only get on my own case if I need to, and I’m learning to be more gentle with myself.
Teams? I’m it. It’s just me. The whole corporate team concept is broken. I’ve seen it fall apart or just plain fail for over 20 years now. You have a group of five to ten employees (sorry, “teammates” because we can’t just call people what they are) sitting around a table, forced to make small talk and participate in fakey fake team-building exercises that no one truly enjoys, and then one or two people end up doing any real work. It’s sad. I’m so happy and grateful to be a one man show.
I’m going to do a whole article on why the team thing doesn’t work. I’ve always had problems with it as a sociologist. It looks great on paper, but then you come out here in the real world and well, it looked great on paper.
I’m so happy and grateful to be free of “the trudge.” I report to me, on my time, and I love it! I know I say it a lot. Before I started working toward manifesting my dreams, it was a long, slow, painful, miserable, insufferable trudge toward the grave. Every day and night looked the same. Now every day- Every. Single. Day. is an adventure! Sometimes it’s just a nap with the cats or sitting on the couch while scarfing junk food and playing video games, but I’m allowed some free time. I’m excited to wake up in the morning. It’s genuine.
Time for my family is very important to me and I am grateful now that I have more of it. I missed out on over a decade with my three older boys while I was working nights. I’m happy to be free to take them to school, pick them up, and just spend some quiet time with them. I see more of my wife now. I’m happy to be supportive on the home front.
Time for my own health and sanity is so amazing now! I suffered so much at my last job, I mean truly suffered, that I put myself back in therapy. I’m still dealing with some psychological junk in the trunk, sure. I still have chronic pain, arthritis, fibromyalgia, and depression issues. Sure. that’s the tired old labels talking. Here’s the kicker- I’m healing. I don’t have to rush out the door after barely having enough time to eat, sleep, shower, and maybe wave at my family on the way by. I’m here to tell you, being free is its own reward.
I get to decide when I eat, work, even nap now. My wife is about the only person who gets to object to anything, and she’s pretty cool about my schedule most days. Thanks, Honey!
It might not make sense to a lot of people. Many do work weird rotating 4 x 12 hour nights or some other freaky calendar nightmare. We can still exchange knowing looks. Working oddball, non-nine-to-five hours really can take a toll on one’s sanity. I’m glad to be free. I’m still and always will be a Nocturnal American, though.
I’m looking at NaNoWriMo next month as a serious possibility. Pretty sure I can hit word counts and page goals per day and then some. It’s just so nice to be able to sit down and work on things without all the pressure. My wife might roll her eyes, but I can make it work. It’s ideal this year, really. You’ll know if I go quiet for all of November.
If I do anything now, it puts money in MYpocket. I love helping people out, sure. That’s what we’re here for. But the thing I’m absolutely loving more than words can tell is that I’m no longer subjected to artificial concepts like sales goals, target savings goals, and other artificial standards that all translate to putting money in some executive’s pockets. Seriously, why bust my hump every night, just so the company I’m working for can outsource everything from custodians to human resources in the name of saving money.
You know who profits from the toils of corporate employees? Corporate executives. These people are no different than anyone else except for the fact that they got a slap on the back and a handshake that put them in a corner office. We no longer live in a world where you work your way to the top from the ground floor. (Not sure if that ever really existed.) These managers and executives don’t care if one of their cubicle inmates works hard or knows what they’re doing. It’s all about the bottom line.
Here’s the kicker- Entrepreneurs worry about their own bottom line. That’s were I am today. That’s the threshold I’m presently standing on. It’s exciting! I’m a writer first and foremost now. The whole profits-before-people thing is dead to me now.
I encourage writers, artists, musicians, dancers and anyone else with a dream to shed the corporate grind and go have a free life. Yes. Be responsible. Take care of yourself and your family first. But beyond that? Please go on out and live your dream life!
Thank you for being here. Stay safe. See you again soon.
Ufology must move beyond the study of random videos of dots and blobs in the sky and the same dozen or so tired cases from the 1950’s and 1960’s.
I tweeted the other day, “Without Disclosure drama and colorful personalities, Ufology would just be random videos of dots and blobs in the sky.”
Every few months or so, we hear “big news is coming.” Or in the spiritual community, we regularly hear about “the event.” The big news tends to be a huge fizzle, like the 180 Day UAP Report to Congress or Lue Elizondo’s latest interview that told us exactly the same nothing burger as the one before it. The spiritual event ends up being not a solar flash, not the latest apocalypse, and really nothing worthy of getting excited over. Then we hear, “Don’t worry, all the cool stuff happened in an alternate timeline.” Or maybe they got wiped out and we didn’t.
I would be overjoyed if ETs landed on the White House lawn in broad daylight and somehow didn’t get shot down. I would love it if gentle, peaceful contact happened out in the open in any country in the world. Finally, proof to the general public that these beings DO exist. I know it would be the best thing to happen to the nuts-and-bolts ufologists.
Some of us are already believers.
Whether you do CE5 or you just believe in your spirit guides, star family and/or angelic guides, you are willing to accept that these higher dimensional or ET beings exist. Even if you are willing to believe some government made physical contact and cut a deal with these beings, you are a believer. If you’re an experiencer or contactee, you’re undoubtedly a believer. We know they’re out there. The catch is, the other two thirds of Ufology disagrees due to a lack of physical evidence.
Sadly, the skeptics are never going to believe anything to do with telepathy, ETs, spirit guides or anything besides their own very narrow, jaded opinions. According to skeptics as well as atheists, there is no God, when we die we become dust and we’re alone in the Universe. I respect skeptics and where most are coming from, but there are some phenomena that can’t be ignored statistically or even scientifically.
Btw, do the math, family- There are BILLIONS of stars, each with its own solar system of planets, each with an untold number of moons. Do you really think us measly humans are alone in the Universe? How is that even possible? Randomly life has evolved elsewhere. Very likely millions upon millions of times over. Randomly, from that sample, some beings are going to have more advanced technology than we have on Earth and very likely they , too, will be looking for life among the stars.
And the nuts-and-bolts Ufologists, I love you, but y’all need to relax. Science can only take us so far in this field. It’s been said hundreds of times- Magic is just science that is not yet understood. We still don’t fully understand gravity. Time? That’s a troublesome animal. Free energy (One of my favorite subjects.) is still out of reach, possibly due to greed and stupidity that has nothing to do with science. If ET has ANY of those things, maybe we should contact and embrace them? Who says they even have “technology” as we would recognize it?
Añjali needs a win and I think she’sgoing to get it.
Please contact @anjaliongaia on Twitter or find her on LinkedIn if you have questions. I am going to confess to being very biased at this point toward Añjali. Her story, her written work, the press conference and even her hypnotic regression are all very reassuring that she knows what she’s doing. I think she knows what she’s talking about. These beings are real. Their message seems very consistent with other ET contacts and spiritual leaders. Again, this is my opinion. You may see it differently.
She’s putting together a team to go back into the tunnel where she made contact with what have been described as “higher beings.” Even if this team goes in with full video, audio, electromagnetic, thermal, radiation, and whatever other gear you want to name, and by some miracle nothing malfunctions and dies instantly in the presence of these beings- I promise you right now someone will jump on #ufotwitter and cry “Fake!” Because obviously a dozen or more witnesses and irrefutable scientific proof isn’t enough for some folks.
Let’s live in the dream fulfilled. Everything goes well. Contact with the beings is even livestreamed on more than one YouTube channel and maybe even the mainstream media catches this story. Will this be the end of society as we currently understand it? I doubt it.
Yes, it’s HUGE! It’s still going to draw ridiculous amounts of fire from critics. Some people are literally going to poo themselves in anger and fly into a rage because their specific take on reality is being radically altered. It’s not the War of the Worlds radio broadcast.
I think the general public is ready for contact. There won’t be a frantic panic among the masses until/unless mainstream media suddenly deems the beings to be a threat. When everything goes well, there will be no mistaking these beings for anything other than peaceful and benevolent. Does that make the whole story more incredible? Maybe.
Some businesses and dogmatic religions, as Añjali has mentioned, are severely threated by the truth. Their way of corporate or religious life is going to come crashing down around them as soon as they start to realize they’re not the only game in town, God is universal, and life itself is not confined to the Earth. There is no bigger story that will ever be on the news. And the “Dark Cabal” or “Illuminati” is going to have a real mess on their hands. Thus begins the end of the programmed narrative. Humanity’s enlightenment to the greater Universe has begun.
Here’s the cool part- global telecommunications. When the Añjali story and that of the expeditions breaks, it’s going to go global faster than anyone could shut it down. It’s going to hit bigger and harder in the mainstream media than the global pandemic or any war ever will. Of course, there’s always a possibility people will have their nosed buried in their phones and they’ll believe whatever they hear. Grim, but possible.
While ET contact will not fix all of humanity’s problems, and certainly not overnight. Please believe beyond a doubt change will be upon us. Once the ball is rolling, the beings will not let it stop. We, the believers, experiencers and contactees won’t let it stop.
Then the rest…
I know Lue Elizondo has announced a big book deal recently and he’s promising us previously unrevealed shocking secrets. Is it a cash grab? That remains to be seen. Some say Añjali is making a cash grab despite she has repeatedly said this is not for financial profit. Maybe Lue will deliver, but I keep wondering what he will come up with that he hasn’t said already. Worse, will anyone believe him? Will his story hold up any better than that of Añjali’s expedition?
Lue is the flavor of the year in Ufology. He has been interviewed on more mainstream broadcasts than any given Ufologist I can think of in the last decade or more. Even the YouTube crowd has latched onto him. Personally, I’m very careful about what he says and where the narrative is coming from. Is he more “right” or “wrong” than Añjali? Please decide for yourself. It could really go either way or both could be correct. If anyone moves us closer to Disclosure or enlightenment and brings us closer to ending decades of suffering, greed, lies, secrets, and corruption, please just do it!
The most positive takeaway from #ufotwitter as of late has been that we’re talking about Ufology. We’re moving beyond debates over photos and videos of little dots and blobs in the sky being fake or not. We’re discussing phenomena, divine beings, nuts-and-bolts, and not the same old tired cases from the 1950’s and 1960’s. If I have to hear one more word about Roswell, I’m gonna barf. Yes, Ufology has a rich and interesting history, but if we can’t move forward, we’re shutting down. Humanity can’t afford for us to shut down and bury our heads in the sand for another 70+ years.
Please, keep trying to make contact. Please keep listening for the beings. Please, keep the faith. We’re going to get there. Our day in the sun is coming. It’s not a hoax or a threat.
No one had to teach a flower how to be a flower. It just grows. That’s what it does. Seems pretty straightforward.
No social media to futz around on. No mainstream media coverage to stress over. It has no complicated relationships to deal with or try to analyze. It’s not even a “flower” until we put a label on it to identify it as such. As a matter of fact, it would still be exactly what it is if we didn’t know what it was.
Literally all the flower has to do on any given day is grow. It has to exist and grow. Again, pretty simple. No ambiguity or uncertain moral principles. There’s no technological assistance needed. It just is.
In contrast, the rest of the world might be in full blown chaos around it. We have wars, poverty, hunger, politics, and all types of manmade insanity all over the globe connected with signals, wires, and circuits everywhere. We have 24/7/365 coverage from around the globe at our fingertips at a moment’s notice. We label, form opinions and react to stimuli all the time.
Meanwhile, the flower just exists and grows. The wind might move it and the rain might fall on it. But it has no opinion whatsoever. That’s just what happens to it. Some flowers might structure themselves differently to reach light, moisture or toward a preferable temperature. These aren’t conscious decisions, though. The flower just grows.
So, at the end of the day, it brings us humble humans back down to ground, so to speak, to just relax, quiet the mind, exist, and grow. No electronics needed. No fancy yoga positions. No one need look or judge. It’s easy. Just be in the presence of the Universe for a few minutes.
There are no ulterior motives showing. Family, friends- Añjali is in this for the human race. This is it. This is what we’ve been doing with CE-5. This is what our spirit guides, angels, and especially our star family has been pushing us to remember. This is the big wake up call.
Dear #UFOTwitter : Please, stop looking for ways to divide the community!
Time for just a little backstory. About a week ago, this very lovely lady, a lightworker named Añjali (Angelina Lynn Schultz) gave a press conference at the Lincoln Memorial regarding extraterrestrial contact. She knocked it out of the park!
No joke, it’s like she was reading from a book I haven’t written yet. My entire journey over the last five or six years in Ufology and spirituality just materialized right there during her speech.
The beings exist. They’re ready to begin making contact. Everything we learned from Dr Steven Greer, Kryon, Lorie Ladd, Daniel Scranton, Ra, and so many, many others is true. It’s all finally happening. I think the thing I’m most impressed with is the fact that someone else gets it! This truly, truly amazing lady just put it all out there in the span of an hour and fifteen minutes, AND is putting together a team to make further contact with these beings. They are planning an expedition down the same tunnel that Añjali’s contact, Wayne, has dug at his home. A full team, with as much scientific gear as they can carry to make contact!
No lie, I’d run down that tunnel with open arms. Science be damned. Equipment be damned. Take me home! I believe you Anjali. I believe you and them. I’ve been waiting for this day my whole life. Now, there’s a few caveats to all of this I want to point out.
I’m not crazy. Añjali isn’t crazy. This is real. It might seem incredulous to skeptical, jaded minds that maybe, just maybe we’re finally on the verge of contact and it didn’t come from the government, the scientific community or some well-known journalist.
This isn’t a cult. We know there are people in Ufology who are determined to have followers who believe them and only them. There’s usually a large bankroll to be had from cultivating followers. This lady has not asked for anyone to blindly follow her. She has not asked for a single penny. She has even acknowledged that many will not believe her or follow her out of fear. (Fear of being openly mocked or scorned.) I’m on my own path. If I sensed there was cult behavior going on, I’d ditch. I truly do not believe this is shady, deceitful, serving an ego, dogmatic, or any other signs of cult behavior.
This isn’t for profit. Añjali stated several times that she is not looking to make any money on this deal. The expedition she is planning will be privately funded by a few hand-picked, possibly undisclosed sources. (I know who I’d ask if I were her, but we’ll see what happens.) She’s even putting electronic copies of her book out for free. She’s not hosting live events or charging $1,000 per plate to sit next to her at a charity dinner. True and honest altruism. It brings a tear to my eye. FINALLY someone who isn’t looking to profit.
This is MY blog and MY opinion only. I speak for myself on here. Sorry if I offend. It’s my truth. I think Añjali is telling the truth. Nuts-and-bolts hard science be damned. Feel free to disagree.
I’m not trying to make a dime here. To my wife’s inevitable chagrin, I would drop everything and go work for Dr Greer tomorrow if asked, especially remotely. I would never, on my honor ask Añjali for a job. She’s doing this out of the kindness in her heart and for humanity’s awakening. Yes, I’m looking for work. Yes, I will help Añjali if she were to ask, but I’m not looking to profit from this or join the expedition.
We’ve ruled out egoand profit. What’sleft?
That’s just it. There are no ulterior motives showing. Family, friends- Añjali is in this for the human race. This is it. This is what we’ve been doing with CE-5. This is what our spirit guides, angels, and especially our star family has been pushing us to remember. This is the big wake up call.
Seriously, short of ETs landing all over the White House lawn, or Lue Elizondo unzipping his mask on live TV revealing his true form, I don’t know what else we want. (Kidding about Lue! Please don’t shoot me!) But all kidding aside, Disclosure, real honest Disclosure is at our doorstep. For crying out loud, can we please just act as ambassadors of peace and prosperity and get this one right?
Why the uproar?
First of all, it goes against the most recently established mainstream agenda. Certain people (Sorry, Lue) have been touting the threat narrative. In other words, they’re telling the press that there are a bunch of unknown scary things in the sky that we absolutely can’t trust and must be afraid of.
The heck with that. The heck with living in fear. It’s pointless. Let’s be positive for once. Maybe the ETs don’t want to see us nuke each other into oblivion.
Second, it’s driving a massive wedge between the nuts-and-bolts ufologists and the spiritual community. (Call me “New Age” or “Woo-woo” one mo’ ‘gain! girrr…) It’s driving a wedge between those purveying the threat narrative and those of us who truly believe in peaceful, benevolent beings. Whose agenda would it serve to divide and subdivide the UFO community over and over? Do you think maybe the same folks who have been wanting to bury our public heads in the sand might be concerned that almost a century of lies, greed, and destruction might be on the verge of collapsing around them? I certainly do.
Third, peoples’ entire view of reality is going to come crashing down around them. Añjali acknowledged that there are those who simply do not or will not believe that contact with these beings is possible, that we’re not alone in the Universe, and that everything we’ve been spoon fed by the media over the last 70+ years is absolute nonsense. (The last part is more me than her, but still…) I fully expect corporate big-wigs and clergy alike to pretty much lose their minds when this story breaks. Prepare for the people who have the most to lose to be jumping out of windows.
Last, I think #ufotwitter has a lot of egos floating around in it. Some can’t handle that Añjali has come forward on her own accord to tell this story, and it doesn’t their narrative or anyone else’s. Some are not coming to grips that they didn’t get to break what will eventually turn into the story of the millennium. Still some are skeptical that she is telling the truth or that such beings even exist.
Why try to discredit Añjali?
The short answer is: DON’T! The longer answer is that several people have tried and pretty much failed already. It’s just not worth it. They’ve accused her of being ashamed of her wheelchair. She’s not, and if people were listening, it was covered for a reason. Namely black leather gets hot in the sun. Personally, I don’t see the chair because I see her and the message. Screw the chair. I’d pack her down the tunnel on my back if I had to.
Some have said she’s starting a cult or looking to make a profit. Well, if you were really listening, she straight up said she wasn’t. Why would she sit there in a press conference and lie to us like that? There is literally nothing to gain because she knows several people would call her out.
Some have gotten on Añjali about being “woke.” Which honestly makes me gag. I’m awakened, not “woke.” I use “extraterrestrial, being, or interdimensional” instead of “alien.” I believe every single word of the spiritual nature of these beings. People are going after this woman for the most ridiculous things imaginable. She doesn’t deserve this kind of grief. She’s coming forward with HER story.
Why is Añjali different from any other experiencer?
Wait. I know this one. She didn’t get “abducted” and “probed.” In fact, she said he laid down on a table and had a true out-of-body experience. She said she dropped a few choice expletives when she returned to her physical body. She was in a place we ALL want to go to and will return to some day. News flash- other ET experiencers have said the exact same thing. Honestly, it reminded me a lot of Dr Greer’s experience report. I also know stories from others who have had amazing, beautiful experiences with various beings. It’s not scary torture like the movies might have you believe.
Añjali has even said she underwent hypno-regression to make sure she understood what had happened clearly. So, #ufotwitter , we gonna go after Dolores Cannon now, too? How many people have to stand up and say, “This is what happened. It was peaceful, benevolent and beautiful?” How many will have to come forward before we finally admit that it must be true?
Añjaliis not hiding anything.
She has even asked people to contact her on Twitter and LinkedIn. If someone were really trying to pull a fast one, would she really invite people to ask questions? Would she really respond to people on Twitter? (even the rude ones.) I dare say most folks would not put up with the scrutiny, the doxxing attempts, or the harsh trolling. She deserves a medal for just the crap since August 17th.
I know I’m taking a risk calling out some skeptics on this matter. A couple of people I really admire and appreciate have already tried to call Añjali out. Some of us in the ufology and spiritual communities alike have gotten burned by false prophets. This is different!
I apologize now if I’ve offended anyone. Even if you unfollow, dislike or even hate me after this, please know, there was never any malicious intent on my behalf. I promise I will still respect and appreciate you tomorrow no matter what is said, no matter how much we might disagree or what else goes down. When we say “Love and Light,” we really mean it and I will uphold my promise. We need to stand together!
Please look into what I’m saying. She’s @AnjaliOnGaia on Twitter and www.linkedin.com/in/angeliaschultz/ on LinkedIn. I will happily delete this information if Añjali asks me to. The same goes for anything in this article.
Añjali is leading the charge, almost literally down the tunnel that some of us would give damn near anything to experience. I’m not looking to join the team or score brownie points with Añjali. I’m saying everything I’ve said in this article because I truly believe in my heart of hearts that she’s telling the truth and that these beings are 100% real.
I’m eager for this expedition to get underway so more people can see the truth. Please, until then, be kind, Be gentle with one another. And please be nice to Añjali, not necessarily because of what she says or what she’s doing, but because it’s the decent, human thing to do!
While I don’t have my whole spiritual mission mapped out and I’m certainly no millionaire LoA guru yet, some of the various puzzle pieces of life are falling into place.
Tonight’stheme is: Tough introspection on my part.
So, I’m sitting here playing my 900th+ match on Fortnite tonight and I started thinking. What kind of legacy am I leaving behind? I mean, they don’t have to carve my bearded face into a stone somewhere. I’ve never been big on glory and prestige or popularity. But, what do I want to be remembered for.
Sound like a mid-life crisis?
Yeah, kinda does. In my defense, I do turn 50 next year. Not sure I expected to make it this far. I mean, yay! But at the same time I’m wondering what the last 50 years truly netted me. I’ve had some pretty epic, killer matches in video games going back all the way to the Atari 2600. Yeah… Combat, Pac-Man, and Dig-Dug. I put in a lot of hours on some of those games. Yars Revenge, too. There was a game…
The Basic Nintendo Entertainment System is still one of my all time favorite gaming platforms. I think I played Top Gun, Double Dragon 1,2, and 3 until I beat them and could practically do it in my sleep. There was this really sweet, sweet game called Conflict that I was super pro at. By current graphics standards, these games are all weak sauce now, though.
PC games became my jam in college. I played Mechwarrior, Unreal Tournament, Doom, all of the Dungeons & Dragons content I could find, Command & Conquer (all up until Red Alert 2 or 3, (I think?) Jagged Alliance 2, Squad Leader, and the best of all- World of Warcraft. I played WoW until my arthritis started acting up. Lots of amazing years and fun characters in that game. I still have fond memories.
Alas, I gave most of it up when I became more serious about my spiritual path.
I would like to say I moved on, but not entirely. I still squeeze in an appearance on Heroes of the Storm occasionally. I started playing Fortnite as a way to bond with my kids. They like to watch those YouTubers who scream and yell at the camera all the time. The game is super easy for us old Unreal Tournament guys. We get to spend some time together and it’s fun. I also get to vent some aggression without anyone getting hurt in the real world.
The one thing I will say has changed is I no longer play super obsessively like I did in the good old WoW days. No joke, I went through about seven or eight years where all I did was eat, sleep, work, and play WoW. Sound familiar? It sunk in one summer night after I watched Dr Steven Greer’s Unacknowledged. Where was I going?
Where am I going?
Again, I’m not out to be a name in every other household around the world, fun though that would be. But I started to realize there had to be more to life than just eat, sleep, work, raise kids and play video games. It started to look like a slow trudge toward the grave, and I’ve never been a fan of that.
That’s when I started to realize that video games are my particular drug of choice when it comes to distracting myself and seriously procrastinating. After some therapy and learning about the wonders of the Law of Attraction, I figured out that video games were preventing all of that “shadow work” and keeping me stuck in old paradigms on top of being a distraction and a means of procrastination. It’s what I do when the anxiety and depression really kick in.
So while I don’t have my whole spiritual mission mapped out and I’m certainly no millionaire LoA guru yet, some of the various puzzle pieces of life are falling into place. Yes, I can still play a round or two of something now and then without blowing a pile of money or losing hours of productivity. It’s a simple matter of moderation and that’s a good life lesson for all the kids, YouTubers and just people out there. If I feel like I’m spending too much time in video game land, I put the controller down.
“If you were going to be rich, you’d have done it by now.” – My mentor.
I would take a real bullet for the beautiful, talented, amazing, inspiring person who said this to me. But also, that particular comment still makes me want to crawl in a hole and die. As intensely dualistic as it is, I’m glad she said it. It’s the truth and we should never, ever demand a retraction for something that is legitimate truth.
I hear it a LOT in LoA and entrepreneurship circles. They say you should spend every waking hour of the day on the grind of either self-improvement or pursuing all of your super serious intentions. Is it true? Well, I’ll say it never hurt anyone. Or does it?
Where’s the joy in constantly having your nose in a book or hustling for that almighty dollar all the time? How much fun are you having when you bury yourself in perpetually trying to one-up your perceived competition or hitting the next benchmark? Sure, who doesn’t want to be rich? Yay hustle and grind. Here’s my “but:” Why should a bunch of screaming YouTubers who play Minecraft and Fortnite non-stop for days get to have all the fun and my kids’ undivided attention? Who’s to say self-improvement can’t become someone’s narcotic of choice, a haven for burying one’s feelings?
Their way isn’t necessarily my way.
*Note, I’m going to name drop a bunch of folks here. Please go look them up on YouTube if you haven’t seen them already.
I admire Aaron Doughty, Jake Ducey, and even Master Sri Akarshana beyond words. They’ve worked hard in their respective LoA niches and have risen to staggering heights of wealth and prestige in the spiritual and LoA communities. I would love to have a sit-down with Jake Ducey some time. He’s one of my real heroes.
They’ve worked hard on themselves, meditated, prayed, and built empires. I might not always agree with Master Akarshana’s style or tactics, but I admire anyone who straight up attracted a Lamborghini and has businesses running in the thousands if not millions. Obviously he didn’t make all that by playing WoW nonstop to level cap every time a new expansion came out.
However, their way isn’t my way. Sure, I like to live in the feeling of the dream fulfilled. I like to tend to business and work hard, but I also do kick back and have some fun with the kids now and then. I also find writing quite therapeutic, especially these days. I still meditate about once per day. I’d do the same thing if I was Eckhart Tolle or Teal Swan. (Although I might not look as good as Teal. Lol!) My point is, I affirm and believe that I’m on my way up. I may be pulling an Abraham Hicks at the rate I’m going- retired and attracting more and more joy into my life. But that’s another story entirely.
They say before enlightenment you chop wood and haul water. After enlightenment you chop wood and haul water. I figure being a millionaire is much the same, just different trappings. You still have to work, but the paradigm and the type of work shifts dramatically.
My kids like to watch Preston Playz, Unspeakable Gaming and Ssundee on a pretty much daily basis. I hear names like Dream and SniperWolf getting thrown around a lot, too. These folks on YouTube make buckets upon buckets of money and have millions of subscribers. I can admire that. Some of these folks don’t just yell at the mic and play video games all day, either. They give away boatloads of cash and help build businesses and they’re all fairly young. I admire that, but again, it’s not really my jam. I’m a player, not a code guy. I can’t make the next Super Nuke Thrower Bow in Minecraft. I’m not God’s gift to Fortnite.
I pry myself away from the PC and the console occasionally and do other things. Hooray for doing what you enjoy for a living. I love that they do it. But again, I wonder what else goes on in their day. Are they really enjoying life and all the money/prestige? I know 2020 was a good year for certain YouTubers. Yay. But I wonder what life is like outside of the box? Are they fulfilled? Where’s the joy? What are they leaving behind for their kids?
Wheredoes that leave me?
This blog will be around for a while yet. That’s a good start. I have a TON of ideas I’d like to develop once I have some funds rolling in. I’m perpetually learning and improving myself, just not obsessively. I’m really loving life, trying to keep my vibration high within reason, and looking for new opportunities whenever I can. Yes, I do some of my more grindy thinking when I’m immersed in Heroes of the Storm for 20 minutes or playing solo on Fortnite.
Tabletop Role Playing Games are sort of my side hustle. I would love to be the next Gary Gygax or even Matt Mercer. That having been said, I’ve got a TON of ideas. I know how to format, edit, write and create game mechanics that work. Characters are no problem. Art on the other hand… We have challenges to overcome in terms of art.
Have a great week. Keep on doing what lights you up. Keep your vibration way high. Take care. Publius.